I don’t know what I’m really about to write… I think I’ll make this stream of consciousness… As of this very moment I feel completely unmotivated. I can’t seem to solve the most simple problem on one design. An illustration. Thats all. I feel like this problem goes a little deeper than just this project, I don’t think that it has anything to do with… I don’t know, I think it might actually be because I’m inside, at home all fucking day, working, creating, thinking, reading. I usually do good with this but lately, it’s been kicking my ass. We were at the screening for Beautiful Losers the other day. It was an awesome documentary. Everyone who isn’t cool should go see it. I’ve seen Aaron Rose like 4 times around Minneapolis and yeah… We also went to Chris Johanson’s show at some gallery on Nicollet. It was odd. Kinda fun, but odd. Aaron, Chris & Jo were there, I wasn’t sure if they were tired or just sort of chillin. I think the art scene here is totally different than in Denver. It seems to be more of a thing for your friends and if you aren’t a homie you are sort of that weird person who nobody knows that showed up… I haven’t been able to feel totally involved in it yet, but I think it’s kind of uncomfortable still, to go. I feel like I need to draw more. Maybe that will help. I want more coffee, and can’t seem to enjoy much if any of my own music lately. I wonder if I’m dying…? No of course not. It’s all imaginary, it’s a subconscious excuse to be lazy… maybe it’s nothing. Shit. Ass-clown.. Thats a rad word. Well, I guess I’ll go make some more coffee and try to eat enough to go for longer on this whole creative spurt I’m not having. Poop.

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